Something told me, there was more to the truth. This was not the whole truth. 

The truth is that I’m still sorting out my “faith”. I definitely have faith. It's just that my faith…

Deep down, I think we all desire spiritual growth more than physical comfort.  We may have this realization when we've already earned $50 million, or we may find it when we’ve made $5000 and realize that it doesn't make us happy. 

I had to wait for the dust to settle from my “spiritual overhaul”, excavate the mess I found in soul and hope that my feet will land in this reality again.

My journey took a sudden and drastic turn while I was in Montenegro in July 2017. It was as if a veil lifted and I could see through the reality I lived in, into a spiritual reality.

Jordan Bach is one of the most fierce, modern-day spiritual teachers of our time. I had the great pleasure of meeting him I attended to in NYC. He imparted me with a powerful message that has followed me to this day: OWN your message. 

So now you slowed down. You're listening for your intuition. You slept on it. You journaled it out and...

You get your intuitive answer! 

But then…you start doubting it.

I’m a firm believer, that we always have the right decisions inside us, if we choose to listen to that still inner voice. 

In order to create a life we love, however, we have to actually act on what we hear from our soul.

I'm conflicted. My problem is that I'm trying to create my own dream career and live my passionate life while telling you how to live yours.  

So I'm making a declaration today that I will not try to tell you how to live your life.  I'll just tell you what's working for me.  (Honestly, this is what I've been doing all along, but I feel better making it clear to you :) I only ever share things that have personally worked for me.)

Here goes: I have seriously down days.  At various points in my life I thought I must have bipolar disorder, PMDD (aka. severe PMS), SAD ( aka. severe winter blues) or depression.

In my efforts to alleviate my moodiness, I went on birth control pills, cleaned up my diet, became vegetarian and even escaped last winter by jetting off to Singapore. Some things worked, but nothing for very long. 

Now I just face it, the ups and downs are part of the human condition. (Not to mention, starting a business makes highs higher and the lows lower.)  The point of life though is to ride the waves, not to numb it all out.